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lickmygumyaw- September 3rd, 19:21
DEAR ALL.
THIS BLOG HAS MOVED TO A SACRED GROUND.
IF YOU ARE SACRED ENOUGH, I WILL SEE YOU THERE :)
- Before the world began
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 29th, 23:55
sore
When was the last time I was truly happy?
With him.
Must stop getting myself screwed, learn mistakes once, not twice, or even for the third, fourth time.
So many people out there, worth my love, why must I be stuck with one who only knows how to play the disappearing game?
- hear the crunch
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 27th, 23:19
tired
It's awesome.
My blog is dead, really dont feel like blogging.
Too much to say, end up, nothing to say.
Oh well, ciaozxz.
One night couldnt be so wrong, you made me wanna lose control.
I'm really full of shit, ignore meeeee.
- Flashing Lights
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 22nd, 23:16
contemplative
Why somewhere along the way something feels weird weird one.
And i think im really kinda blur and stupid. I am, i know. but its just making me feel so dumb.
Hate being dumb, God grant me wisdom :)
//inserts.
Its so weird, while online, i saw something which stirred up sad feelings within me, and many big fat tears rolled down my cheek. Dongs. Tell you what happened, was on fb, then i saw someone updated her personal status : DYING FROM LAW READINGS, it struck me, yeah shes just one year my senior and shes studying law supposedly, so i felt so inferior. I mean, well that was my dream hello? I have wanted to be a lawyer since young, and i've worked real hard for all my ten years of studying, primary school till secondary school, and till jc, i screwed up big time, and now my hopes are dashed. I dont see how i could do such a brainless bimbo thing to stop studying and slack off when i entered jc. These two years are the crucial years in determining what course i would take in university, thats if i could enter one. And technically, its over. My dream. Couldnt have a chance to take my A levels next year, which i should be confident of securing As. But as a matter of fact, I'm taking it this year. I dont blame anyone for not giving me a chance to prove that i can score As, after all, who can i blame? I was the one who didnt take this whole A level issue seriously, its just facing the consequences of my brainless actions now. Its called undertaking personal responsibilty, something i have never learnt to carry out in this whole 18-years course of my life. I got this feeling God is discipling me now, He's telling me that this is something i gotta learn, to be responsible for my actions, and He's telling me if i dont learn this time, i will be living this kind of life for the rest of my life. And i'm taking a stand, and telling Him today that i want to change. Yes God, change me. I really dont want to picture myself ten years down that road, being half-hearted in everything i do, being fickle in choices i made, being easily distracted in tasks i set out to do, being unfaithful in relationships, being an escapist in the face of hardtimes, being a bimbo in the eyes of others, being a burden to my parents, being a backslider in Christ, and last of all, being a Jack-of-all-trades-but-master-of-none. Because i lack wisdom, sensitivity, maturity, determination, courage, and faithfulness, i live such a wayward life. Because of that, i mixed up my priorities and did not study for major coming exams. And because of that, i faced up to my own actions and let my dream pass me by..
No one will follow through, only God will.
- Think Thoughts
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 19th, 23:12
- contemplative
Okay.. God really has been walking this path with me, really am grateful for his mere presence.
So yes, life's been having their ups and downs, people coming and leaving at the same time, iunno where to start talking from, unsure of things, lost, but supposed i found my direction now, and happy for someone to love and for Jesus to love too, and for my parents to be fairly reasonable up to this point at least.No one says its gonna be easy, so cliche, but so true. But happy can already
YES?
- That's when He says Yes.
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 16th, 0:40
calm
Sky at east coast beach, when the sun's already more or less set, is quite a beauty :)
Use me God.
In whatever way you like, for i know you only want the best for me.
Needless to say, my family is in turmoil, okay not that serious, but theres no peace.
I need Your peace and loving hands to reshape my family's values and outlook.
Blessed me with a conviction to achieve impossible academic xxx.
- Get back what was taken away
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 13th, 23:54
silly
A strand of loose hair,
A detached heart.
Time to stop acting like a infatuated 14-year-old.
Spend time only on things that are worth and necessary.
- A man's dog is in need of a lesson.
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 13th, 10:36
- busy
Scanning through pictures, caught this.
Looloo in motion, so chio : }}
Woman, i really do miss you! :)
Yeah, i jolly well know my problem.
A problematic child, right?
So be it.
Anyway, I've done some research today, about disorders, nothing personal, just to increase and broaden my horizon. All the readings and evaluation, I know what i was suffering from in the past and now, for a record, here's one :Obsessive-Compulsive
People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.
Yes, how true, i was once like that.
Except the part where i have difficulty expressing emotion, i am pretty sure it isnt true. Unless I am like that and i am unaware of, so please tell me people. If i am really unable to express my feelings in the past. Or even now : )
Drink of the Day: A Starbucks favorite! Tazo® Green Tea Lemonade. Chinese green tea blended with mint, lemongrass and lemon verbena, lightly sweetened, lemonade and shaken with ice.
its really light and refreshing, a total change from those usual creamy and thick ice-blended sugared caffeine drink, makes you float with a tinge of sexiness.phew.
Joke of the Day:
A father, mother, and son were going to Europe and were going to visit the nude beaches while they were there. They didn't want the son to get a distorted view of beauty, so they told him that the men with really big dicks were really really dumb, and that the woman with really big tits were really really dumb. When they got to the beach they split up. Later the mother saw the son and asked where his dad was. The boy said, "Well, the last time I saw him he was talking to this really, really, really dumb blond, and the longer they talked the dumber he got."
P.S. Check out www.mms.com :)
super fun, playing with M&Ms there!
- M & M s.
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 12th, 18:20
- bored
Doodles, dawl, boredom.
- Blast My Brain
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 11th, 13:36
hopeful
Its hell of a headache, when you are faced with a problem like mine.
Should I take another year to do my A levels, next year 2010?
To be practical, no matter how much i cramp everything in from now to A levels, which is 3 months away, its not going to work, even if thankfully I can score Bc & Cs, im not happy with it.
I am sadly perfectionistic by nature, which is partly the reason why i get myself into so many disorders over the years, but thats not going to change. The perfectionism i mean.
Certainly, i do not wish to settle for any whatsover university, my wish is to get straight As, satisfy the transcedent qualities of true Rafflesian spirit, although im not a conventional Rafflesian, never will be, and dont desire ever to become one. But when it comes to grades, i wont be so stupid to become an underachiever.
Have always led a life, where people with authority led me by nose, people like parents, counsellors and teachers convinced me, changed my mind, made decisions for me. Again and again.
This time, i guess this wont happen. Cause I realise i should have stood up for myself back then. Now is the chance to take a stand. And not live with another regret.
My heart, i crossed.
It will be a good decision.
- Zap
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 10th, 16:40
cranky
And so, I dont want to lead this life of mine,
Super a lot of time to reflect.
Wasted day, really wasted.
Hate waking up at such a late hour.
My lack of courage to stand up for what i want is really costing me a lot.
I suppose.
Love you love me!
- Permission.
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 9th, 17:54
good
And why is my Picture Resolution so horrible?!
cant seem to adjust the size.
Happy National Everyone! :}
Lesson learnt : Never go blading at any parks on a public holiday's eve. Unless you wanna return home smelling like Bangla :(
And i bladed today! (: (: (:
- And, i nearly fainted.
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 8th, 23:18
crushed
Iunno why my reaction was such.
Did i not expect to bump into you?
After all, just how big is Singapore.
- Pinky
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 8th, 1:06
- mellow
Elated over the Speedpost.
Realise that it could be pretty hard work delivering stuff and working at a post office actually, but seems to me an ingenious form of job.
Shall give it a shot, when I get the chance.
Terry material is very soothing to the sense of touch, like those Terry Zipped-Up Jacket kind, velvety sort. Awesome material, shall revamp my whole wardrobe to that when time permits, and if my cash takes on an amoeba-nature, la
Busy with life, too busy to warrant much time for emo-ing.
Cookie monster has got a new friend by the way, meet Pinky :)
Mom says im like an adult child, playing with softies at this age.
I dont think so though. They are nice to hug and are pretty adorable.Its hard to please everyone in this hard life of mine.
One party happy, the other one, most of the time, becomes very displeased.
- Thinking Process
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 2nd, 15:49
- contemplative
Cos the best part of me is still you .....
Really. how time pasts. im growing old. and wrong. by the day.
See, a rose is still a rose.
But a man wont be a man any longer.....awwhs emo.
- Unwind and get a shock
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- lickmygumyaw
- August 1st, 1:10
creative
Teehee, its really a damn pleasant morning greeting from Kristal (:
[K] says ; says:
. give me th cock walking icon
. pls
. hahah th emoticon
. whr th balls walk .
She wants the mushroom icon (: that maybe doesnt look much like a mushroom, just see how it walks!
- Ambiguity
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- lickmygumyaw
- July 30th, 17:59
cynical
The main purpose of a blog is for the sheer pleasure of readers. The second, more obvious, but less practical reason is to... Release any thoughts and inspirations of the writer himself/herself. Its of less practicality because the truth is that we simply cant write our exact and honest thoughts.
But, i realise that my blog has really been my thoughts. I dont write out 100% of my thoughts, but whatever thoughts i do pen down, they are of 100% accuracy. After all though, a blog is a blog, its public, its on the net, its easily accessible, and everyone and anyone can actually read it. Therefore, for it to remain ambiguous, is crucial.
(:
But i cant hide this anymore.
I cant deny that i really thought you were so special, and thats the reason why i lingered on for two months even after you walked away. But the fact remains, whats not meant to be, will ultimately leave us someday.
And now, despite liking you so much still, I think.. i might.. have fallen... for another.
How fickle.
I know.
Im not sure though if i really liked this someone else. but if i do, the feeling is very vague, the liking is very small, not enough to overwhelm my liking for you. Yet, time can do wonders. I'm sure, with your indifference and my increased liking for him, I'll probably be heading in for another black hole. Period.
- So Goodnight Moon, Goodnight Stars.
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- lickmygumyaw
- July 30th, 0:00
- crushed
Can we start from the beginning? I’ll pretend I had no idea
that you never intended to call. No, you had no intentions at all.
You left me climbing up the walls, waiting for the fall.
Can we start from the beginning? I’ll pretend I had no idea
that you knew that you could wreck me.Yeah, you knew that you could wreck me.
These games that we’re playing, someday they’ll have no meaning.
Do you sleep…do you dream…do you fuck…do you scream
...do you always walk into a room like a run-on sentence?
DO YOU ALWAYS WALK INTO PEOPLE'S LIVES LIKE A SHINING STAR?
I’m so in love with love that I could never let you hate me
But passion she just ain’t your friend, simplicity is my enemy
And now this rain is not hopeful
this rain is not brave
this rain is not sadness
this rain is not change
it’s water falling from the sky
Water falling from my eyes
Water falling on me and all my metaphors
You said temptation is for derelicts and lovebirds
I said you and I are both at best
Then I try to let you be
But the great escape escapes me
And you remind me that time even let the good things die.
Well,someone told me that im just like a ..........
Im like trapped in a watch that has stopped ticking long ago.
This simple comment wakes up something in me, makes me realise something,
makes me look back, makes me scared.
Maybe this loss isn't temporarily, it is permanent.
Fml.Like,even this face looks so fucked up.cross-eyed.looks very crossed.
So goodnight universe, theres school tomorrow, triple french connection.
- Breathing Underwater
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- lickmygumyaw
- July 29th, 15:13
amused
Greeting and salutations, my little blog rats! :D
Having played the "missing-in-action-from-school" game these two days, it has certainly confirmed one of my greatest suspicion of all time :
We, students, are much better off, without school (:
Check out these unique rings, ultimate pretty things! innovative ttm (:
(: thefutureperfect.com
Forget-me-not rings
Crayon rings : handmade siol!
- Hey woman.
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- lickmygumyaw
- July 28th, 13:10
bouncy
Credits: Kristal's Blog (:
Well, didnt mean to "kope" it so indiscreetly, but at that instant when i heard the song and let my soul sink into the lyrics, i just felt like being an emo-kid.
So impulsively, its here on my blog, tata!
I have been doing some VS online shopping the whole morning,
and realise how much i've been missing out on life.
